I want to give up... but I can’t because it’s mandatory.

NOTE: Not naming the company or anything else due to legal reason (and i don't want to be hunted down). And if you are going to take this post down, take down Evan Edinger's Vlog about his failed job interviews first then go talk to me.

Sup guys, Cutiejea here

I'm now at an all time low now (Not referencing the band... I'm just feeling upset). Why you may ask. I just now realised that my dreams and goals are probably never ever gonna come true and if it did... well, I may have to leave the country or something. IDK... I'm just feeling a bit negative.

You see, last month, I posted how time was moving really fast for me since I have internship interview and I'm about to reach second semester of university and stuff like that but life decided to press the breaks for me and I didn't get the internship... or even get interviewed for that matter.

Yes, the company that wanted to interview me... they canceled 1 HOUR before the interview. Why? Because at 1:25, the person saw me with my dad and thought 'oh she doesn't look independent, let's cancel on her!' (BTW, my interview starts at 3pm). So at 2pm when I'm at KFC with my dad and brother, I got a text and call saying that they found someone already. My dad thought it was not fair that he decided to text the company.

That's when we discovered that it was because he came with me when WE WERE FINDING OUT WHERE IT WAS!!! It's not like my dad will enter with me, we we're just finding out where it was.

From that point, I felt too upset to do things. I was at my part-time job and I got extra shifts due to people quitting and one is a co-worker who is gonna have a part time job in a finance company (which accommodates to her course). I have a uni classmate who also got a part time job. And my cousin got an internship in a hospital since it's part of his course.

I guess everyone is getting long term paid/beneficial experiences while for me, I'm stuck doing volunteer work which I don't mind doing but I can't just be doing volunteer work forever.
What’s worse is that Internships are mandatory in my university so I fear I can’t graduate due to this.

If I compare my life with my cousins and the people around me who are at the same age as me, it shows that I'm way left behind... like way back. My channel isn't getting anywhere, no one wants to accept me (and I applied to nearly 30 jobs) and by this point, I feel like giving up.

I don't want to give up thou since I love doing what I do but I'm 18, I need to get paid or at least have long-term experience based on my skills, not picking up small scraps of jobs that I can grab.

I was warned that there is not many position in the industry that I want to enter and I convinced myself that I can still do it. That's why I made my channel, to prove my worth. I made videos using 2 giant pieces of cloth bought from Lincraft. I own a DLSR camera since I know it's one step closer to good quality content but at the same time, I can't afford the programs they expect me to use. I can't afford AVID, I have absolutely no idea how to use After Effects and Wordpress is still a giant issue for me. I want to learn these things but I can't access the free membership in Linda.com.

So I'm still lost.

I feel that my passions should just be forgotten and that I should let them go. I mean, they want other people but me, besides the fact that I create amazing things out of my ipad, made a hashtag trend of a short time and stuff like that.

I just wish there is just someone out there who saw my stuff and is willing to lend me a hand or a job or a recommendation or something. But until then, I just have to keep applying to these jobs who wants someone else for the role.

And if I do get the interview, I have to get used to wearing a stupid skirt and boots just too look appealing, only to get rejected for stupid reasons.

My name is Cutiejea and this has been my Life out of the Camera.

Using 'Dan and Phil' for views'

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Sup guys, Cutiejea here!

First, I might be able to do 2 blog post per month... who knows. Just to let you know.

Ok for this post, I may get love or I may get hate. Either way, I need to get this out there. I tried to make a video about this but it always end up me not making sense whatsoever so I've decided to let it go but after jumping in to YouTube again and seeing another kind of video that I will be mentioning here in this post, I need to speak my mind out.

Also for this post, I will not mention names and show any videos because it will lead to an online war where I don't want to get deep in to.

So lets get started.

Today's blog post is about how YouTubers are using Dan and Phil or targeting fan groups for views.

Listen, I'm fine with whatever video you want to make since YouTube is such a creative space. You can bring up YouTubers as well to show that you've been in the loop, like you know what this space is and all that but there must be some line between 'being original' and 'using fan groups'.

Lets start with you guys accusing me of using 'dan and phil' in my channel. Listen, I make original content as well. To be honest, I make more original content than my fandom content. It's ratio is literally near a coin toss and I try to pursue more on my original content. And also, I've been in the phandom since 2014, I co-run @PhandomAus on Twitter and even written fan fiction (one of them got shortlisted for a university level creative writing contest). So if I make D&P videos, it doesn't matter since I have some involvement with the group.

My issue is people who are like 20 - 30+ people who are making videos about them. The weird part is that they look like they have no idea who Dan and Phil or any other youtubers are but know that if they make D&P content, they can attract an audience.

I'm not accusing youtubers like 'Crank that Frank' that he's part of this group, no... he's fine, there are others and I will not name them.

Listen, I'm not saying that you can't make these kinds of videos, it's your channel, do whatever you want. However, I make D&P videos when necessary, I don't have the ability to make them all the time. Even if I do, I make a decent amount of views. And I'm part of the Phandom.

The other group thou, they have no idea who they are, they just have to do a single Google search to find out who they are, read @UpdatedPhan on twitter just to have accurate constant updates about them and in the end, make a simple video and get more views than me. (Let me repeat, these people have ABSOLUTELY NO IDEA who Dan and Phil are and GET MORE VIEWS for making basic to near-advanced content while I get at least 100 - 500 views when I make Phan videos).

I know I have no right to complain or anything since people will nag, saying 'make better content' or 'you suck' or 'you have a really small following' and other bullshit. But that's the thing, I tried EVERYTHING I could do and I also have other plans as well to post online but I feel like it's kinda unfair that there are people who COMPLETELY have no idea who these people are and get more views than me.

Is this fair? No! But can we do anything about it? Not really.

And that's the thing, I think people doing something like this is really unfair but there is literally nothing I can do about it since I'm just a small person. I don't think even my online friends can help me fight this battle since it's either they don't care or it's nothing to be worked up about. I know this shouldn't bother me but my recommendations feed lately besides Undertale, Drama Alerts and British Vloggers video recommendations, I will stumble across a video where people who are SOO OLD, reacting to PINOF or Phan Fiction just to get views!

I dare you to find these channels and question them about the advanced knowledge in the phandom like 2012 or V-day or anything else. Or better yet, ask if they went to TATINOF or MET THEM IN PERSON (Get Photo/video proof) or check their social media accounts if they post/reblog/retweet D&P content.

Same goes for other YouTubers that these people 'pretend' to know. Ask them the advanced knowledge about them, if they met them, if they bought a decent amount of merch. If they can't answer that, then they're just using them for views.

Anywho, this is just a rant that I've been having a hard time expressing through video and decided to type it all down in a blog post.

But do you have anything else to add in the conversation? Let me know!

My name is Cutiejea and this has been my Life Out of the Camera.

My Anonymous Phase

Note, everything here is based on opinion and expression. If you take me down, then you are proving the point of this post.

So... you know how when something bad happens to you, you go through an 'anger' stage where you will do/think something that will count as 'revenge' or 'fighting back' from the source of said anger? For me, this may sound weird but there was a time where I was considering joining Anonymous... or just support them in any way possible.

If you don't know, anonymous is this hacking group where they try to bring justice and equality to society, stopping the '1% who play God without permission' (Mr Robot, 2015). They are not a government party but an idea according to them. Basically, they want to restore balance to society as everything is filled with conflict and inequality like poverty and the unfair law system (according to them).

And you may be asking, why the [bleep] do I want to join anonymous? Why does someone like me want to be involved in this 'idea'? And how the heck did I ever heard of this group of people wearing 'V for Vendetta' Masks? 

The reasons begins when I was forced to delete my channel.

That one reason brought me not only to my 'depression / my life is over' phase but I was awakened by the injustice the people who were involved to take me down just because I had a voice. I was expressing myself through my rants and vlogs about my life and the fact that I was forced to delete my most popular videos then my channel and it got me really upset. One of the videos I was forced to put down was a video about 'Why I hated my preliminary exams' as SiTC 2014 was happening, TRXYE by Troye Sivan and 'Better Late than Never' by Stuck in Your Radio has been released ON THE SAME DAY and Season 8 of Doctor Who just premiered on TV! That's basically it, besides the fact I ranted about how hard my subjects are. Another video I was forced to take down was me singing 'Narda' by Kamikazee during an event 'on location' and lastly, I was forced to take down a video about how you give revenge to your ex by showing you are better off without him during the healing process. Yes... I was forced to take down this HARMLESS video for the vulnerable people on Valentines day, motivating them to not be miserable.

By this point, you should have a clue on who forced me to take down my channel. These people told me that doing this 'can ruin my reputation' or 'make me not have a job' and I have to 'suck up and accept the whole thing'. I want to point out that there are famous youtubers doing the same thing and they have like millions of subscribers. 

These people took my character the wrong way and forced me to take down my videos. My rants are similar to Danisnotonfire mashed up with I Hate Everything but they took everything literally and got really offensive. I told this to my peer group and there was a divide on who is right and wrong.

This memory still haunts me whenever I view my 'about' page in my YouTube channel as I'm no longer a legacy user.

I first went emo. I've been listening to Muse, My Chemical Romance, Panic! At the Disco and Fall Out Boy constantly. I was very upset at school that if someone mentions what happened, I would end up 'blowing up', telling them to shut up as I can tell they have a part on taking me down (or just blantly accuse them)

But then I heard about Anonymous and how their goal is to restore order for the voice with no voice, with no power... and I am one of those people with no power during my fragile moments. I was treated unequally for injustice reasons. I was forced to remain silent till I graduate and finish HSC and for that... I can't say what I want to feel because 'I will be hunted down and thrown my ass in jail!' (Pyscho, Muse, 2014).

I know Anonymous is more on stopping the government but their main goal is stopping oppression to the 99% with no voice... and I want part of that. I wanted to fight back with the torment I was given during my darkest hour.

To me... Anonymous was my hope as I was already tired with the rules that I was forced to follow. (Yeah... I have a dark side).

But I know I have no chance in being in this group because I have no idea how to hack, heck, I don't even know how to code in my Tumblr page for pete sakes. 

So as usual, that idea is to me 'something that I would consider in an alternate timeline'. But recently, I just watched this TV show called 'Mr Robot' due to a university assignment and watching that brought back memories of me wanting to support the group.

Maybe this poster will help explain why:

Mr Robot is about this guy named Eliot who is a hacker who was chosen by this hacker group called F Society (this is the actual name, I'm not censoring anything here). The goal, take down E Corp (or Evil Corp) through hacking their systems and destroying their backups so that they can take down the 1% who play God without permission.

When I first saw this, my first impression was 'Ooh, the guy is bug eyed'... I'm not joking, here is the ACTUAL Facebook convo I had when discussing about this:

I watched the entire season 1 in 3 days (#suchprocrastination) but knowing their motives and the story and everything else, it brought me back to that phase of defying the people in control cuz... f*** society. And Mr Robot wasn't the first who made me express my anger of society, Muse's album 'Drones' was like a drug for me. I've been listening to all of their songs in that album (along with a few others) as the songs are about defying order. The 2015 film Straight Out of Compton also triggered this as its about how their 'art' is being threatened by the authorities. I even got in to My Chemical Romance due to the same reasons. The songs that I constantly listen from them are Destroya, I'm Not Ok, Welcome to the Black Parade, Teenagers and Kids From Yesterday.

Can you see the connections here? All are about defying order, being yourself no matter how many push and take you down, breaking the rules due to it's injustice.

What I'm saying is that, I'm not part of Anonymous, I don't think I'm worthy to be part of them but their motives on breaking social order and rebuilding it for the little people is something I support. I'm tired of being shut down for having a voice and an opinion. Just because I said one thing doesn't mean I'm that, this is just me expressing how I cope from being annoyed with the bullshit treatment I was given.

So  I will repeat this, everything here is based on opinion and expression. If you take me down, then you are proving the point of this post.

Am I the only one who felt like this? Were there times when you questioned the system and authority? Oh well.

So my name is Cutiejea and this has been my Life out of the Camera!

1 YEAR OF BLOGGING

Sup Guys, Cutiejea here!

Hey... today marks the 1 year I started this blog! (Yes... a full year!) And I can't believe it has been that long as I didn't know that I would be still doing this till this very day! Sure, the production ended up becoming '1 post per month' but hey, it's better than nothing right?

So... after 1 year of blogging, how did it change my life?

Well, besides the fact that this blog helped me express myself through words, it was this blog that help me get into the uni that I'm in (I'm really serious here). Reason being is because the Communications Degree is more than just playing with a camera, it's also being able to tell a story or write stuff. TBH, it was really useful in one of my assessment task in one of my uni class. Another reason is because I was in a portfolio day where I have to give my creative works for the same university and the only thing they were mostly interested was my blog. Like screw the photographs, songs, creative writing and all that, all we want is the blog! (Out of all the questions they asked me, the question regarding the use of blogs was the hardest)

So why did I started my blog in the first place last year? Well... to be completely honest, I was sent home after some 'issues' that occurred the day before. It wasn't my fault btw but my school thought it was safer if I was sent home (so yay... catch up homework and leaving your stuff in your locker without even knowing). I just got bored when I was home so I thought, why not blog! I was inspired by George Sheppard's blog on wordpress.

Either way, whether you follow me, read my entries or whatevs, thanks for reading my entries and being part of my story. It really means a lot. This blog is a lifestyle blog with a bit of random stuff but this is the closest thing to originality that people actually enjoy. Kinda odd thou that I started it on April Fools day but who gives a crap!

So I can't wait to write more entries for you and hope to see you soon and thank you for being with me for an entire year!

So my name is Cutiejea and this has been my Life out of the Camera!

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Becoming Trash for Undertale

Before I start, I want to give out a spoiler warning as Undertale is a game best played blind (meaning you need to have NO INFO about the game mechanics/story/etc) so if you haven't played it or the YouTuber you're watching hasn't finished playing it *coughs* Dan and Phil *coughs* DON'T READ THIS POST (unless u don't give a damn)

Sup guys, Cutiejea here!

So recently (well, late February) I got into Undertale and I swear to God that game is making me rethink about how I play games. I'm serious, right now... I'm too scared to do the genocide route as I heard once it's done, I live with those sins forever.

I'm not saying that 'Undertale beats any other game out there' or 'Undertale beats any other fandom out there'. All I'm saying is that I've become addicted about the effect that game has caused me and it's a good thing as it changed my perspective on video game tropes and conventions.

But this game... I've became trash under 4 days (4 DAYS!!!).

Here is the previous list that I used be trashed for:

1. Phandom
2. Muse
3. Shamy
4. Nowhere Boys
5. Sheppard

Here is the list now:

1. Phandom
2. Muse
3. Undertale
4. Shamy
5. Nowhere Boys

It first started when I watched Dan and Phil played it in YouTube then I bought the game because it seemed fun! So I got the game and watched a few YouTube videos so I can get a basic introduction on what Undertale is about. Also, I watched Game Theory's episode about Sans and that got me hooked. Then after 2 hours of playing, I got the soundtrack because the music is very good. My fave songs are Home, Heartache, Another Medium, Undertale, Hopes and Dreams and Megalovania. Then there were the post in Tumblr and 4 hours in the game, I've became trash.

This brought me to the point where I wanted where I wanted to write a Charisk (Chara x Frisk) fan fic on wattpad!

First chapter is out and more soon to come (Wattpad link)

But Undertale, I have to say, it's now one of my most fave games so far... even better than Pokemon (and I swear, I'm a total nerd for the GAMES [not the tv series]) and defeated my love for Skyrim (A game I played for 70 hours back in 2014/15!). Undertale will make you laugh, cry and think about your actions when controlling Frisk that right now, I'm now having second thoughts on doing the genocide route.

But what caused me to become Trash for Undertale is the idea of multiple interpretations of what could have happened in the game, what could have happened next and so on. Also, you can create original characters that can also have an effect to the new plot line or you can put in more character development between the main cast that it creates new depth into the story. One of my fave tumblr blogs doing this is Ask Frisk and Company where its a fan fiction mixed with audience participation, meaning, our questions and ask to the blog can have an effect on the plot line. (link to the chronological order of the story [part till we're introduced to Lucinda])

If you want a quick summary of the story, click here.

Another is the shipping. Anything can be shipped in the game. We have the usual ships, Chara and Frisk (Charisk), Sans and Toriel (Soriel), Alphys and Undyne (???). But we also have the odd ships which I accept like Monster Kid and Frisk, Mettaton and Papyrus, Papyrus and Undyne. Basically, if you can prove that your ship can be legit, then congratulations, it's accepted.

And the best part is the original music/mash-ups/parodies/covers the community has created. I have a few faves but they're really good (especially the ones who uses Megalovania as the main beat for their songs)

The reason why I've became trash for Undertale in a short amount of time is something I'm still trying to figure out. I guess it's because the game is open to interpretation that the creative side of me wants to know more and wants to jump in into the action. I can just say 'Undertale is just a game and I enjoyed it' but the game broke gaming conventions where music is built to match the scene and the idea of saving and restarting can also affect the gameplay dialogue. It's breaking the rules on how video games work, reinventing the format on how it's play and changing how we experience playing video games. Normally, we play games like 'you need to do this' or 'you need to kill this dude' and it's mostly a linear timeline. Undertale is also a linear timeline but it's more on a hierarchy timeline as each action can alter anything that can happen. This is what got me interested into the game, that one small step can change anything. The story can reach many ending and you are given the ability to expand on those endings and create new stories based on your experiences.

Undertale is not just a video game, it's a game where you have room to expand the Undertale Universe as the characters you meet and encounter will leave a significant bond as you play the main game. To me, Undertale is Minecraft meets Skyrim, a game where your actions creates an impact on your character but you can build on the story further (hence why I'm writing a fan fic of the game in Wattpad).

Toby Fox, if you are reading this (which I highly doubt you are), thank you for creating a game where our actions in the game creates an impact in the game and also creating a story where we can expand on. This game has to be the best game in 2016 (unless Pokemon Sun and Moon gives a better impression).

So if you haven't played the game, I suggest you should as it's a fun game to play and it may be a bit challenging but the story in it will inspire you to create an extended plot line on what happens next. And the soundtrack is really good so I also suggest listening to that as well!

My name is Cutiejea and this has been Life out of the Camera

(PS: I made a Undertale fan animation using plotagon and it's arriving this Friday so here is the link)

Growing Up

Sup guys, Cutiejea here!

So, if you subscribed to my channel or any of my social medias, you may have heard that I'm now officially 18 years old! This basically means I'm an adult in my family and in the Philippines but in Australia, the official adult age is 21 (18 is the legal age but everyone is more inclined to 21 years old being the official adult age).

Here is the video talking about what I've learned in 18 years of existence (Uploaded on my birthday):

So it's been a few days since my time as an adult and I have to say... it kinda boring (but how should I know, it's still my holidays!)

Today's blog thou is about growing up and how there are some parts of your life you tend to keep, move on and decide if it should be part of you or not.

Ever since I reached this point in life, I've been doing a bit of spring cleaning within myself and started doing stuff that I never knew I was capable on doing (I don't <bleeping> care if it's summer). For starters, I've decided to be a total 'girl' and start to buy my own clothes for university, my commitments on learning the ukulele is still growing strong and there are other parts of my life that I've first considered odd for me to do but I did wind up enjoying it (An example is me swimming in the beach where most of the time, I would never enjoy it! Now, as long it's in Bondi, I will consider swimming with a bodyboard).

But there are also parts of me that I feel like letting go. An example this this old website I made. Sure, I may keep it running but I have thoughts of deleting the site and updating around 20 videos, removing the link in the description. Another is my love for gaming. It's not my fault, my laptop can no longer run the games made these days since it's 32 bit!

But even if I feel 'grown up', there will be times where I will act like a kid and it will piss off others since they expect me to be more mature and how can I since my 2 of my role models are like 28 - 29 years old and they act like kids!

I hate that the idea of growing up is for you to be 'very mature' and 'not make any mistakes' or 'be conformed to society' and all that jazz and it annoys me since I still want to goof off! I still want to make silly mistakes that people consider to be 'You cant do that since you're 18!'. Does it look like I give a flying <bleep>?!

I know there will be a time where I will have to let go of being a kid and just grow up but if you do lose your childhood, you will lose the part of you that makes you happy, that tiny part of you that clings you to what made you... well YOU! And this is where doing what you love comes in as if you still have that tiny 1% of your childhood in your life, then you know that you're not becoming a brainless sheep. Yes, there will be times where you will have to let go of things or decide if it should still be part of your life but in the end, whatever you decide will be the cause on how you feel about life in the future.

I end this blog post with a quote from Dan Howell from The Amazing Book is not on Fire 'I guess I just want to say, this thing we've created - is ephemeral*' (Ephemeral = Momentary).

So you guys have the choice if you want to grow up, remain a kid forever or do both! For me, it's both but I also have to mature in order to survive but I still need to retain that part of me that kept me going which is my innocence.

So my name is Cutiejea and this has been my Life Out of the Camera.

The ATAR and my past and future

So... I'm back and this time, for a blog about the ATAR (aka: the rank needed just to have a guaranteed entry to university) and how the missing experiences from my past is somehow reflected to my rank. For this blog, I will not say the names of the universities as I may end up in trouble.

So at 9 am (or for my case... 8:57 am), I got my rank and before all of this, people tell me 'Go get that good ATAR' or 'a High ATAR = Better future'. I'm not joking, when you reach like late year 7 - early year 8, everyone will brainwash you saying getting that high rank equals happy life and from there, that kinda got stuck in my mind.

Yesterday, I got my marks and I went to 5 ATAR calculators to predict my rank. All said 63.70. Today, I got 62.90.

So when I got my rank... I'm not saying it's a bad rank but it's decent enough to get me into ONE university. I'm not joking... out of god knows how many universities are there, I can only get into one... well, I can do private college but... best not to comment about that.

My grades thou were decent... I mean, Band 4's and 1 Band 5... that's amazing but if your subjects are low scaling and had unsupportive people who tell you 'YouTube is where rapist/strangers can find you' back in 2008 before you even made an account and had literally have no idea what you wanted to be till the end of year 11, that's when you know you kinda fucked up your life.

I didn't know I wanted to work in media, my ENTIRE family were pushing me to the teaching degree and whenever I ask stuff like 'How do you make a website' cuz someone in your family made their own successful website, they ended up avoiding it. And again, I was given an intervention about me being banned from going into YouTube because I watch 'Who killed Captain Rockhopper' and a bunch of Club Penguin fan fic videos that they think that working in media/doing something creative means rape or something bad, you know that there is something missing in your life... like you haven't found who you truly are in the required age. Due to this, I did subjects irrelevant to the course I actually wanted.

If I can go back in time, these are the subjects I would have done:

• Advanced English
• Music 1
• Design and Technology
• SOR 1U (I was from a catholic school so this is mandatory)
• VET Entertainment
• Visual Art

At least with these subjects, I could have received MORE bonus points than the subjects I have now.

And to everyone just going to say to me 'But what's done is done' and all that bullshit, I just want to say shut up for one second as there are many things I wanted to do in the past that I was forbidden or unselected to experience. I could have created a YouTube channel in 2008 or made my own website blog in the age of 7 but I was sheltered because my family thinks some rapist will find me or I will end up dead.

Sometimes, I wonder if everyone was just goddam supportive about this... like they would just tell me how they made these things and so on instead of pulling me away from this because I bet, when I enter university, everyone has high quality DSLR with long experience while I'm just the girl who records stuff with an iPad!

So overall, what I want to say to the people who are about to embark on the same journey, my tip of advice for you is to fully figure out what you want to do or who you want to be before year 11 starts. If you wanted to make a youtube channel at the age of 6... GO FOR IT since Troye Sivan did it and he's now a famous pop star! Want to be an adventurer, do it!

I know I can't blame my past for all of this but I would have been nice if I had some support in a young age rather than people worrying that I'll get rape just because I go to a website where I can watch videos.

Overall... just do what you love doing, if people are pushing you away, then just push forward as if someone told me this in the past, then maybe my future would have been very different.

This is Cutiejea and this is life out of the camera.

Traditional Vs YouTube

Hey, Sorry when I didn't post anything on October, I just have final exams (HSC) that it occupied the entire October so I didn't have the time to post anything.

Before I start, I want to say... these opinions are based from someone who wants to do Media and Communications as a university course and based of opinions and post from people on twitter, tumblr and youtube.

But anywho, this is post is something that a few YouTubers (Like Game Theory and Pewdiepie [Pewds has many vids about this that linking will be hard]) tackle and that is 'Media Bias' and how Traditional Media attacks the YouTube community just to gain clicks.

Watch Game Theory's video based on this topic as it explains this better than me:

First of all, WHY THE <BLEEP> ARE THEY ATTACKING?! Do they know that posting something nice will give them the same amount of clicks (probably). Almost every article involving the youtube community always involve something hurtful that we hardly see see anything nice.

- This was from Channel E's website

Currently, the traditional media have been targeting Pewdiepie, The Gaming Community and a few well known YouTubers like Tyler Oakley, taking things step by step but now, they have attack the big guns. Thats right people, Traditional Media is now attacking the Phandom

- New York Post stating that doing challenges with these items are nothing but in total actuality, they are difficult af.

So recently in the Phandom (the group im in) on November 8 (around 6 - 9 am AEST Daylight saving time) via Twitter and Tumblr, there was an article from the Sunday Times (UK) where Dan and Phil were interviewed for their book and tour.

Havent read it? Here is the link: x

This was the heading and description of the given post:

By the time I read this, I thought it was finally time when they appreciate the youtube community by using the power of the Phandom to help merge the two worlds (Which is my goal in the future, to merge both traditional and online). By reading that heading and description, it shows how traditional media are going to say/ask nice things about them and the YouTube culture itself.

But reading the article... we were lied.

Unlike the other hate articles where they legitimately start off with the hate in the heading then continue on throughout the article, the heading and description here... it was clickbate! It was a huge lie to let all the members in the phandom go and read it for 'click' and soon enough, it was filled with hate and lies and a bunch of misunderstandings and shit that it cause a shitstorm via Twitter and Tumblr (mostly amongst the popular tumblr and twitter users).

Lets start off with the fact that they think that we as fans like Dan and Phil just because of their appearance and want to meet them just for bragging rights!

Can we start off by saying that we don't watch Dan and Phil just because of their looks and appearances. Sure, we tend to type 'HAVE MY BABIES' in every photo we seen but it's not like that! We love the two vloggers because they save lives! They actually want to emit positivity throughout their videos!

THEY EVEN MENTIONED IT ON BBC BREAKFAST!!!

Not to mention about the story when a cancer patient watches Dan and Phil to keep her strong due to her ordeal! (BTW, Im glad for this article being posted as it doesn't backlash youtubers in general and shows how YouTube isn't all bad at al!)

And there are stories on how Phil's hugs helped a girl stop cutting herself all over tumblr back in 2014!

So see, we don't love them for their looks or their hotness but rather from their influence in our lives.

Next is the fact that the interviewer asked about their sexuality... I'm not joking:

Before I continue, let me state a rule from the Phandom... DO NOT ASK ABOUT THEIR PERSONAL LIVES!!! This rule was placed due to the 'Adrian Incident' which I will not talk about since talking about this issue will also break another rule in the Phandom. These rules are in place so that we don't recreate the dark times (aka: 2012) and that Dan and Phil will remain comfortable creating content for us.

Now, the interviewer, Josh Glancy (or Mr Glancy) literally asked if they were gay and this is an all new low as NOBODY SHOULD HAVE EVER DONE THAT!!! Worse of all was when Dan and Phil push away from answering to that, he still puts it in the article! WTF!? Dude, if the boys say 'NO', you don't <bleep> post the result as it's an insult to their privacy.

Worse part of all of this was he mentions how much they make in their videos:

I don't know about the goals for this post but why the hell did you ask that?! What's the point? If you want to accomodate the phandom, why are you posting a finance question into this. Not to mention, we don't give a damn how much they make as we love them for who they are!

And don't get me started when they brought back the Oreo thing and ad regulations:

I'm sorry, I thought the article was about their book, not how Dan and Phil make a living based on their videos and how they steal the girls hearts by their looks.

This article lured us with a clickbait starter then full on degraded Dan and Phil and the Phandom throughout the article. Sure, there were a few good things but the rest was total bullshit and it was a stab in the heart! I guess the Phandom were used to Pewdiepie and the Gaming Community being the main target or protecting us while we just mind our own business. But now, when Traditional Media attacks the Phandom by targeting Dan and Phil and THE FAN GROUP itself, then shit is going down. I mean this is worse than the 'Adrian Incident', the 'video incident' (can't mention since it's also breaking the rules), and the 'Dandongs incident' combined (For those who doesn't know, these incidents are the biggest incidents in Phandom history as it caused shitstorms and controversy and these incidents are the biggest moments in the phandom when the members adds new rules to their law book). Why attack Dan and Phil when they can play with fire and attack their fans as well, saying we are adoring them like how we adore Justin Beieber or One Direction where in reality, it's quite the opposite.

So why is traditional media doing this? Is it because our generation is known as the 'Technological Generation'? Is it because there is a rise of a digital culture where playing League of Legends or Dota is now a sport? Is it because digital celebrities are earning almost the same amount of money that tv stars earn? Is it because we can no longer recognise who the <bleep> George Clooney or any other celebrity? Is it because teenagers are now becoming famous by doing stupid shit or creating random crap in their bedroom and others needed to work their butts of to make it big?

The answer... YES.

We are now in an era where everything is becoming easier and more convenient in our lives that traditional methods are about to be faded away or deleted. Think about it, Fifty Shades of Grey (still hate that book), was originally a Twilight fan fiction then soon became a book that sold a lot of copies that then turned into a movie! People can become digital celebrities just by talking on front of a camera, 5 Seconds of Summer and Justin Bieber became famous just for doing covers on YouTube and now having a big name in the music industry. MOBA (Muliplayer Online Battle Arenas) are now being counted as a sport that we no longer have to go outside just to get fit. Schools are allowing iPads as an educational tool. See, almost everything in our lives are becoming convenient for us that traditional things are now in the brink of extinction.

Want more proof: Encyclopedias! I never own one and they hardly ever exist due to Google! Who still uses an actual dictionary if we have Dictionary.com or (once again) Google to help us define words. Not many people sell CD's anymore and just use iTunes or Spotify or YouTube to promote their music as it's much more convenient (and cheaper btw!). We now rather use email or Facebook just to communicate with our family and friends rather than using the telephone or writing an actual letter. Even newspapers are feeling the burn as they are now going for the online approach just to keep on running.

- This an article about how Fairfax media (An Australian Publishing Media company) is losing money.

See, this the reason why Traditional Media is attacking YouTube. When hardcopies of books, newspapers and educational needs started to go for the online approach, Traditional Media started to worry that digital celebrities will take over Hollywood. It's not our fault that we want role models who don't take drugs or never went to jail. We just someone we can relate to, not to be entertained by (well there is a bit of that but still).

And one last thing... the reason why less people watch tv now is due to this reason: YOU'RE BORING!!!

TV shows always bring back the same plot over and over again that it's lame, it's the same story and we all know how it ends. We don't want endless stories of this dude banging some chick! We don't want to see a perfect world and a perfect life anymore. The problem is, traditional media can only post that shit as it's the recommended standard due to media laws and regulations. Want to know why many people watch Game of Thrones? It's because the plot is different from anything else. There is incest, there is rape, there is dragons and all your fave characters and protagonist dies in every episode. That tv show defied the standards of TV, making it new hence why people watch it and became one of the most pirated tv shows of all time.

So Traditional media, instead of hating on the YouTube community because nobody loves you anymore, maybe fix yourself first before attacking. Make yourself appealing for the viewers as your content is becoming shit and no one wants to see the same old crap as usual.

And to the YouTube community, just keep doing your thing... just don't fall for the Traditional Media's traps as they are still finding ways to bring us down. We are the next generation of media and entertainment and we must be strong as the war isn't over. Just because they attacked one of the biggest YouTubers and communities doesn't mean it's over. They will find a new target and it's up to us to defend those who will soon be stuck between the crossfire.

This is Cutiejea and this is Life out of the Camera!

PS: I made a video about this so check it out if you want: x (It will be out on November 13)

Graduation

Hello my fellow readers,

Today is a special kind of blog as it talks about the concept of graduation (basically, if you are reading this, you must already know that I'm a graduate).

For me, I really wanted to graduate, like I really hated my final year of school due to issues that still to this point I'm not allowed to explain. To me, graduating means I'm close to get out of the year 2015 as it was the sh**iest year I ever had in my whole life. I was hoping that once I'm out... I'm out.

But there was something different during my graduation that kinda make me cherish the remain moments of school. First was graduation day where everyone... (And I mean everyone) is all like 'I can't believe we're here!' and my reaction is all like 'I know right!'. Then you see your teachers in a special graduation robe that symbolises their educational status they've achieved and it varies from what University they came from.

Then you have the usual graduation stuff... nothing new.

Unlike the American system, there was no throwing of hats and such since we had no hats. Instead, we all walked (then ran) outside and more yelling of 'We Did It!' (Something you would expect from Dora the explorer)

Then came the formal.

I will not talk about the preparation as that will be for a future video (its a funny story actually) but I will talk about what happened and what you need to be aware off.

First, if you have an ex, you better find the FIRST available guy (or girl or friend) you see! It does not matter if what you get is your best friend or the weird guy at the back of the class or the guy you hardly know... you need to stay away from that ex (especially if how you and your ex met is through as dance partners). Reason being is that it will bring back those painful memories that you have spent months on trying to forget!

Next... you better be prepared to dance for 4 - 6 hours straight! Yeah there are breaks but lets face it, you are one of those people who doesn't want to be left out!

Basically, I just danced like a sim!

No matter how tired you are or dehydrated... YOU NEED TO DANCE!!! Who knows... you may find your inner disco... or robot... or chicken.

Next is the fact that you will have to pray to all the deities in the world that you and anyone else ARENT WEARING THE SAME THING!!! And I don't mean just the dress, I mean the hair, the nails, shoes... the works. To be honest, a friend of mine and I were soo close on having the same hairstyle.

Overall, my graduation week was great! I managed to enjoy the remaining moments of school and now... I have to work my butt off to pass the finals.

My name is Cutiejea and this has been life out of the camera!

Vivid Sydney 2015... Improved a bit

Ok, so if you were my loyal to my old channel and follow me in my new channel, you guys should remember that my firsy vlog is about how much I HATED Vivid Sydney 2014 due to the crowds and a bunch of other variables.

This year however, I have to say... Vivid Sydney improved a bit. I went and it was almost similar to last year's one but less crowded (And I went on Day 1 or 2 so expectation is more crowded stuff),

First of all, Opera house... same but too much florecent lights. It wasnt that interesting since... I don't know, its just the same but less wow

 However, the rest of the night was amazing. If you love photography, Vivid Sydney is your chance for good photos. It's a glow in the dark wonderland but more aww, more interaction and improved crowd control. It was improved soo much that I managed to watch a light show on front of the Circular Quay train station (It's near McDonalds)

But out of all the things that occured, I enjoyed taking photos using my iPhone (Yes... i'm still against the DSLR... But my cousin has a camera that defied my judgement). So here are a few of what I took:

The last one is my masterpiece! It took arround 20 tries to get this right. (No Joke!)

So in conclusion, I enjoyed this year's Vivid Sydney. It has improved a bit and it was great.

So that's the end of May's edition of Life out of the Camera!

-Cutiejea

P.S: I think the forthnightly schedule is great! Two blogs a months... easy to manage!

When Team Internet Takes Over... What are the effects?

One of the reasons why I love YouTube is because of the fact that its filled with creative people who can do amazing things with just a camera (before it turned into a medium where its filled with people who just do it for the cash). But what outstounds me the most is when the people who has been in this game of YouTube for a while does something that breaks the barriers between YouTube and Traditional media. This is why I started to make content, to someday be one of those people.

But this is not about me wanting to do this but more on the people who I look up to or enjoyed watching for months or years and did something that gives me the feels of being proud for #TeamInternet.

The first the announcement of Dan and Phil creating a book and having a worldwide tour (The Amazing Tour/Book is not on fire). Normally, Dan and Phil only tour within the UK, America and Europe (i think) and here in Australia, there aren't many Phan girls (both Dan and Phil), Philions (Phil only) or Danosaurs (Dan only) because of the lost hope.

This tour changes everything.... Hope is restored and hopefully, I wont be the lone wolf.

Next is the fact that YouTubers making music. Yes, YouTubers are being respected as artist. When I was riding the airplane during my overseas adventure to Hong Kong, one of the albums I get to listen to are 2 Pentatonix albums. I've heard of Pentatonix this year but only because it was announced in the TV news that they won a grammy. And after watching a Teens React to Pentatonix by the Fine Brothers, I decided to check them out and I instantly loved their song 'Love Again'. I loved it so much that it inspired me to write a fan fiction one shot (seen in my wattpad). Besides them, last year the #amazingphil, 40% is based on TRXYE by Troye Sivan that it got Platinum in Australia, Number 1 in 50+ countries and was part of the top hits selection in iTunes last month (although I'm a bit jelly since Troye is 19 and I'm near that age and i haven't succeeded in anything)

Next is the vlogbrothers (John Green) having 2 of his books turned into Movies and its freaking amazing because I cried 5 times in The Fault in Our Stars and I'm already hyped up for Paper Towns this year. Oh my goodness... Please make The Abundance of Katherines film!

Lastly is YouTube on TV. I'm not talking about pressing a web browser on your plasma/LCD tv and going onto YouTube but more on YouTubers working on radio, featured on TV and stuff like that. Besides Dan and Phil on BBC Radio 1, I watched Grace Helbig with Jimmy Fallon in ABC 2, watched iHasCupquake on Wipeout via Youtube and actually enjoyed the Annoying Orange TV series 2 years ago on ABC 3 and thats a good thing! The problem with this is when major TV stations STEALS from YouTubers. So far, the only incidents I've heard was Nickelodeon stealing Phil's 7 second challenge and didnt give credit and something about Jimmy Fallon taking Joe Sugg's whisper challenge and 'sort off' give credit (don't look at me, blame Tumblr --- these fan girls give really good and extensive evidence based on the issue). There is a part of me that says 'I don't mind' but it kinda hurts knowing that creators get their ideas stolen and its up to the fans to retaliate and the creator is TOTALY unaware.

But in the end... YouTube merging to Traditional media? I'm not sure if that's a good or bad thing because anything can happen in just an upload or a broadcast and I'm kinda afraid that the essence of YouTube being a medium for the creative will become a medium for commercial and business and the next thing you know... the YouTube we once love is gone and transformed into... I don't know... A market place or something and we as the viewer will no longer be viewers or fans but more of a consumer, a mindless robot to buy and such rather than to enjoy the content.

I still love YouTube and the fact that I can still be creative is great! Just hope YouTube doesn't blow it or take away the creative essence of YouTube away...

Cutiejea