Moving too Fast

Sup lovely people, Cutiejea here!

This month, lots of things are happening... like a lot. AND IT'S HAPPENING TOO FAST!!!

For starters, TATINOF is happening in Australia this August and as admin for Phandom Aus/NZ on Twitter and Tumblr, we got a lot of questions and people literally expect us to answer all the questions. We managed to give the best advice thou.

Also... we made #RowPals a trend for a short time

Another is that I'm about to enter second semester of University so god knows what's gonna happen to me and my future. I saw one of my subjects and I got near credit for it! Which is really cool in my book!

Third is that I got an internship interview and I got accepted to do volunteer cinematographer work for Smash (the Anime convention). And I'm soo excited since I'm about to get some experience... except it's for free (BUT IM GETTING PROFESSIONAL EXPERIENCE!!!)

So many things are so many going on with my life that it's all happening too fast.

This is really cool but also really scary.

The reason for that is the fact that I'm scared that I may not be ready for all this change. I'm just a kid (well, technically 18 years old so an adult) but I'm going to face my future and adulthood in a really fast pace that it scares me that I may screw up, that I'm doing too many things. I just want things to slow down.

This was me when I got my VIP ticket and I'm still surprised I managed to get one:

People both offline and online think I have potential and that I'm very reliable and stuff and I'm cool with that. People thank me for working late hours and working hard just to get stuff done and I'm happy to do that. But the main question is... when was the last time I had a break?

One of my greatest wishes besides meeting my heroes and passing uni and hopefully moving out (sorry family), is to be able to have a break from everything for at least a week, which never happened. Just one week of doing whatever I want. No Phandom Aus/NZ, no work, no school, no parents nagging... just me and my laptop with internet where I can catch up on whatever I want.

Unfortunately, that's too much to ask and it will never happen. Well, it was close from happening if I was permitted to go to Vidcon 2016. The plan was go to USA for a week for Vidcon and other stuff like sightseeing and stuff. No parents, no chaos, just me and what I have for a 1 week break of life itself.

But I guess that's too much to wish for I guess which I quite understand... since once again, I'm just a kid.

But yeah, I still yearn for that 1 week break from life.

My name is Cutiejea and this has been my Life Out of the Camera

PS: D-3 Section 4!!! (and i accidentally got 2 gold tickets so that means my mum is coming with me!)

When Team Internet Takes Over... What are the effects?

One of the reasons why I love YouTube is because of the fact that its filled with creative people who can do amazing things with just a camera (before it turned into a medium where its filled with people who just do it for the cash). But what outstounds me the most is when the people who has been in this game of YouTube for a while does something that breaks the barriers between YouTube and Traditional media. This is why I started to make content, to someday be one of those people.

But this is not about me wanting to do this but more on the people who I look up to or enjoyed watching for months or years and did something that gives me the feels of being proud for #TeamInternet.

The first the announcement of Dan and Phil creating a book and having a worldwide tour (The Amazing Tour/Book is not on fire). Normally, Dan and Phil only tour within the UK, America and Europe (i think) and here in Australia, there aren't many Phan girls (both Dan and Phil), Philions (Phil only) or Danosaurs (Dan only) because of the lost hope.

This tour changes everything.... Hope is restored and hopefully, I wont be the lone wolf.

Next is the fact that YouTubers making music. Yes, YouTubers are being respected as artist. When I was riding the airplane during my overseas adventure to Hong Kong, one of the albums I get to listen to are 2 Pentatonix albums. I've heard of Pentatonix this year but only because it was announced in the TV news that they won a grammy. And after watching a Teens React to Pentatonix by the Fine Brothers, I decided to check them out and I instantly loved their song 'Love Again'. I loved it so much that it inspired me to write a fan fiction one shot (seen in my wattpad). Besides them, last year the #amazingphil, 40% is based on TRXYE by Troye Sivan that it got Platinum in Australia, Number 1 in 50+ countries and was part of the top hits selection in iTunes last month (although I'm a bit jelly since Troye is 19 and I'm near that age and i haven't succeeded in anything)

Next is the vlogbrothers (John Green) having 2 of his books turned into Movies and its freaking amazing because I cried 5 times in The Fault in Our Stars and I'm already hyped up for Paper Towns this year. Oh my goodness... Please make The Abundance of Katherines film!

Lastly is YouTube on TV. I'm not talking about pressing a web browser on your plasma/LCD tv and going onto YouTube but more on YouTubers working on radio, featured on TV and stuff like that. Besides Dan and Phil on BBC Radio 1, I watched Grace Helbig with Jimmy Fallon in ABC 2, watched iHasCupquake on Wipeout via Youtube and actually enjoyed the Annoying Orange TV series 2 years ago on ABC 3 and thats a good thing! The problem with this is when major TV stations STEALS from YouTubers. So far, the only incidents I've heard was Nickelodeon stealing Phil's 7 second challenge and didnt give credit and something about Jimmy Fallon taking Joe Sugg's whisper challenge and 'sort off' give credit (don't look at me, blame Tumblr --- these fan girls give really good and extensive evidence based on the issue). There is a part of me that says 'I don't mind' but it kinda hurts knowing that creators get their ideas stolen and its up to the fans to retaliate and the creator is TOTALY unaware.

But in the end... YouTube merging to Traditional media? I'm not sure if that's a good or bad thing because anything can happen in just an upload or a broadcast and I'm kinda afraid that the essence of YouTube being a medium for the creative will become a medium for commercial and business and the next thing you know... the YouTube we once love is gone and transformed into... I don't know... A market place or something and we as the viewer will no longer be viewers or fans but more of a consumer, a mindless robot to buy and such rather than to enjoy the content.

I still love YouTube and the fact that I can still be creative is great! Just hope YouTube doesn't blow it or take away the creative essence of YouTube away...

Cutiejea